Wondering

Was it really love that made me blind?
I think back of the time when I thought I was deeply in love with him.

My guess is no.
It was not love that made me crazy.
It was obsession that made me blind， it disabled me to see things I should have seen.

I have been blind.
I guess I did not know who he really is.
Or what our relationship really was.
Or how our relationship even worked.

I had no doubt he was the one for me.
Now I cannot wait to get rid of him.
What is wrong with me?
Have I changed too much or is it him that has changed too much?
Something is definitely wrong with us but neither of us is sure what it is.
Or is it just me feeling the awkwardness?

Wonder why he has not decided to give me up.
I told him that I did not even have any feeling for him.
What’s taking him so long to say to me that he should look for some other girl?

So much thing to wonder....